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ok, so i have to admit that i am pretty upset right now! my parents never care about me, and tonight they decided to, so now i am grounded! i have gone out after work MANY times and NOT called and they were asleep and didnt even care! but tonight!! they decided to care and i am onw grounded and my mom is "VERY UPSET WITH ME AND YOU MAKE ME SO ANGRY...BLAH BLAH BLAH!" its so freakin annoying how they pick and choose when to care about you! uggghhh!
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i hate people! all they do is lie and backstab you! they act like everything is cool and then go make out with your ex bf like a slutty bitch! i HATE autumn!
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[Tuesday
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ok, so i have a new goal! i have decided after mine and jerry's talk and talking to my sister jerry was, unfortunately right! hahahahahaahahah! ne ways, so i have decided to not talk crap about ne one! omg, it is so freakin hard! especially with curtis in 3 of my freakin classes! hahahahah! ya know i usually wouldn't be laughing about this, but i can't help it, i have the goal to be nicer, so maybe i ca be mean in a nice way! hahhaha, i like my devious plan! CURTIS IS A FAG! In the nicest way possible! hahahahahahahahhah!
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April 30th, at 8:58pm] |
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i didn't know it would be so hard to let go
why can't i move on
when i said i loved you, i didn't know i really meant it
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well i do feel all alone, cuz its not like you will ever be there for me and i am crying jerry, but last time you saw me cry its not like you really cared. i am going to get over i am determined and i am sorry that people piss me off but that is how my whole family is, you think i am bad, you should see jennifer and jennette, and i doubt you were EVER close to tears. jerry you're not over me YET but i know you probably will be soon, so i need to get over you! and there is no way we will ever get married now i have come to accept that. and if you like me less why do you want to be my friend? " happen to people you dont like, which would probably be everyone pretty soon." and this is the part that offended me. and also, i DID talk to about the whole curtis thing and you didn't change so what you talked to me about, why should i change?!?!??!
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Jerry Walker
Date: Apr 27, 2006 9:45 PM
I paid less attention to you because I was liking you less. I'm sorry, I know it wasnt the best tactic, but it was a mistake that I regret making. But you werent and you definitely arent last place in my life. Which part offended you? Because thats not what I'm trying to do here. I just want everything out in the open so you know that I'm not the big jerk you think I am. I'm not completely over you yet. But there are better ways of getting over someone than being pissed at them, especially when we had the relationship we had, and I still want to be your friend. And I cant expect you to like everyone, and Im not saying by any means that Im perfect, but it made me very sad, almost to the point of tears sometimes, when we would be hanging out having fun, and all of the sudden you would remember out loud what someone had done to you, and immediately your countenance would change and you would become mean. I HATE it. Not like it annoys me, but I hate it because I know it can ruin someone. Taylor, I'm almost crying right now thinking about it. Please dont get mad at me over this. I just want you to know the truth about how I feel about all this. Its not like Im having fun over here and I dont care about you, while youre suffering and feeling all alone.
love jerry
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From: Taylor
Date: Apr 27, 2006 9:34 PM
i mean how you acted when you were around curtis, you were a complete jerk. you were always perverted and acted like i didn't matter. and you did to push me aside jerry. and even when we did hang out curtis was ALWAYS there and i can't stand curtis and i am sorry but i may not like a lot of people, but i am not soon not going to like EVERYONE and yes that comment offended me. and i am to last place in your life jerry, still!
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From: Jerry Walker
Date: Apr 27, 2006 9:30 PM
I dont understand what you mean by the way i acted in our friendship and pushed you aside. I've been fighting for your friendship because it means that much to me. You are not last place in my life. I wish I could make you understand, but no matter what I say you probably wont believe me. Please dont do this. I'm not trying to play games with you, I just dont work that way. I like getting down to the point, and the point is I care about you and I want so badly to be your friend. I want what's best for you, and for you to be happy. I dont want to never see you again. Please dont do this.
love jerry
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From: Taylor
Date: Apr 27, 2006 9:23 PM
i am sorry jerry, i can't be that person anymore, and i can't face you anymore! and its not that i wasn't happy about your friendship its that i wasnt happy about the way you acted in that friendship and pushed me aside. maybe we shouldnt be friends anymore, maybe that would be best cuz i am still pushed aside and thats what makes me not "fun loving" cuz i am so sick of being last place in everyones life. and i will go to gilbert next you and you will never have to see me again!
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From: Jerry Walker
Date: Apr 27, 2006 9:18 PM
Girls and their "plans". It was wrong of you. But I can see why you did it. I'm sorry Tay. Don't make the mistake of thinking I dont care about you anymore. You should have learned a long time ago not to believe everything that comes out of Curtis's mouth. But things like the fact that you would be happy to see my friendships fail are what keep us apart. Things like you being happy when bad things happen to people you dont like, which would probably be everyone pretty soon. I loved you so much and I talked to you about this, how you're so unhappy and hateful to other people, even if it wasnt to me. I talked to you about that just like you talked to me about hanging out with Curtis more than you. So when you broke up with me I knew it was the right thing. To tell you the truth, after that I was still almost positive that you would be the girl I would marry. We both need some time to date other people and mature up. After a while we'll see. I just miss the fun-loving Taylor who enjoyed life. So DONT think that this was easy for me, because it was heartbraking to watch you change right before me and there was nothing I could do about it. Maybe you can relate to this....I'm sorry, Tay. Do you understand what I'm saying?
love jerry
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From: Taylor
Date: Apr 27, 2006 9:02 PM
yes i was mad...and yes i do still have hurt feelings jerry. cuz yes i did break up with you, but its not like i wanted to. i felt like i had to cuz i felt like you didn't care ne more. i thought if i broke up with you you would start to care more and want to be with me again...but my plan backfired and you just became closer to curtis! i know that was wrong of me..but then when i found out you were over me, that sucked even more! and i want to be your friend, but right now trying to get over you its just hard. and knowing you will ALWAYS choose curtis over me is even harder! and i still like you so much jerry, and i guess i am just bitter cuz you don't like me and i know you never will like me like that again. and i know you have moved on and thats just hard for me to face, and i never said i wanted to put honey on your car...someone told me i should do that to you and i laughed but said it was too mean.
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From: Jerry Walker
Date: Apr 27, 2006 8:56 PM
why were you angry at me? That's what I don't understand! YOU broke up with me. And all I've tried to do since then is be your friend. But for a while you just ignored me or said something mean and then ignored me. And you told a bunch of people how stupid I am and how much you hate me, and how you wanted to write "I HATE YOU" on my truck with honey or something. And now you say you want to be my friend, yet you still say your little comments which make it obvious that you're still mad at me about some things.... So I'm begging you please: either forgive me for whatever wrong I may have done you and be my friend, my true friend who doesnt have any bad feelings towards me and who doesnt talk crap behind my back OR just forget about me completely and don't be my friend and STILL don't talk crap about me. Please, Im begging you.
love jerry
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From: Taylor
Date: Apr 27, 2006 8:48 PM
sorry...i wrote that when i was angry at you...and i guess if you are well aware of it maybe you are in a realtionship and i don't know...so i will get over it. sorry...i was just angry at the time!
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From: Jerry Walker
Date: Apr 27, 2006 8:11 PM
Thanks for the advice. But I'm well aware of it. What do you care anyway?
Love Jerry
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From: Taylor
Date: Apr 22, 2006 3:36 PM
maybe next time you sign in you should put that you're not in a relationship and change your display pic! and change the who you would like to meet...
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[Tuesday
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Isn't it funny when you share your true self, like your deepest most sacred secrets, with what you thought was your close friend, how suddenly you realize they're not your close friend ne more! :(
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[Tuesday
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so everyone wants to know why i hate curtis so bad, well here it goes....I BLAME HIM FOR ME AND JERRY BEING APART! i know i shouldn't cuz its not like he was doing it on purpose or made me break up with him, but i do, i blame him. for always inviting jerry to something before i could, and just being attached to his hip. also, for jerry's v-day gift(since it was curtis's idea)...i blame curtis. i blame him for everything and now when i see him and jerry side by side it sickens me...i seriously want to throw up, or die, or kill curtis, or give him lemon flavored laxatives and a lemon falvored cake. it just pisses me off seeing them together, and i know it shouldn't cuz me n jerry aren't even together ne more...but it does. and i just wish he would move far far away so would never have to see him again, and him and jerry would never be seen together again. ne ways...i just wanted to vent and i know if i tell ne one else this they will be like "you can't blame it on curtis!!!!!!!" so that is why i put it in here.
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[Wednesday
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man oh man oh man! life has been so good today! i felt like i was on top! no HW, good tes grade (kinda), and well...thats about it. even though my stupid bf didn't even say goodbye to me and never called me back! HATER! ne ways..it got me thinking...i won't be so attentive to him...i'm gonna back off a lil...ok..who am i kidding..it will never work, i love hanging out with him, i love being with him, i love talking to him, i love him and i can't back off no matter how hard i try! uggghhh WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!!!!!! ne ways, to day was good :)
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i never really knew how much of an influence you have on your friends till i talked to one of my closest ones!this friend was told me a secret that i did not really agree with, and i said i would try to convince them to stop but they wouldn't listen to me. but they said i have a hige influence on them in their life. i kept this person from taking their life! so i would just like to say, always be there for your friends, be someone they can lean on, depend on! i know i have so many friends like that! they will always be there for me and i am so grateful for that and that bondship you can have!
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k, so my sister is the BIGGEST BRAt in this effin world! she annoys the CRAP out of me, and i get to enjoy rides with her to and from school every tues. and thurs.! LUCKY ME! she needs to move out with her babies effin father! cuz she is still seeing him so why doesn't she go make his life miserable, why do i have to feel uncomfortable in my own effin house! it's not my fault she moved out when she was effin 17 and made a effin mess out of her life! ugggggghhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! maybe if i wish hard enough that she will move out it will happen! ne ways enough of that!
**On a happier note**
So, i want to hear all about ms. hogues FANTASTIC weekend! ooooooo....ALSO i were my Higley High tote bag, and it is looking marvelous if i do say so myself! ne ways, see you 2 wonderful ladies later, you know who you are! the only two friends i have! he hehe!
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